Everything has its place
It’s so easy and natural to compartmentalize life. Especially for me – I like everything to be in its place. For example, over here I have college friends, over there I have coworker friends, back there is my mom’s side of the family, then over that way is my dad’s side, and on and on. People from different time periods or places of my life tend to stay separate. Similarly, my knowledge of subjects tends to be categorized – chemistry vs math vs English vs nutrition vs mental health—are each in their own little box. Can you think of areas in your life that you compartmentalize?
Have you ever had an experience in which these different compartments all mix together? Let me tell you, it’s just weird and a bit exhilarating. I’ll never forget the moment before I walked down the aisle at my wedding when I saw ALL these people from different phases of my life sitting together at the same time. Worlds collided! Same thing (although less emotional, for sure), when it came to different subjects overlapping back in college. Like when I learned something in physiology class that I could break down and use my chemistry knowledge on. BAM! Worlds collided and that excited me! (Anyone else excited about physiology and chemistry? No? Just me?)
So what am I getting at here? Well, for the past 8 years or so, I’ve been growing and deepening these two worlds in my life—my own God world VS the eating disorders world, in which I work as a dietitian. Here, I drew a picture for you:
When Eating Disorders and God Overlap
I can count on my one hand how many times those two worlds may have overlapped—when I got up the courage to pray with a client in session or when someone from church confided in me about disordered eating struggles. In those moments, I felt a hint of something good, very good! I felt a little spark…that exhilarated feeling when worlds collide. The cross-over between these two worlds of my God and eating disorders is what I want to explore here in this blog!
So of course when this idea came up, I instantly thought “how can I—me, me, me!—connect these worlds?”
You’ll find as we get to know each other this above behavior is typical of my personality—putting this pressure on myself to make something happen, to control. Well, thankfully God didn’t let me struggle with that very long and he gave me this picture:
God is Bigger
Did you notice that God is bigger than the little box (or circle, rather) that I have put him in? He created everything, so of course he is bigger than everything…
“…all things were created through him and for him. And he is before all things, and in him all things hold together.” (Collossian 1:16-17)
Would you think about what this verse means to you? Take a moment to slow down with a deep breath or closed eyes, read it over a few times, and just marinate for a bit.
Do you have little worlds that you categorize in your life? Can you name them? Can you picture God hovering over all of them? What’s your reaction?
What feelings arise when you consider that God is there in your struggle with eating (or your friend/family member/client’s struggle)?
How might today be different if you hung on to this verse as truth throughout the day? Knowing that he sustains and “holds together” every aspect of our lives on a daily basis?
I am comforted by the fact that God is over it all. He created everything, cares deeply for everything and has a plan for everything. He is the Master Weaver of a tapestry that we cannot see the front side of until he reveals it later.
It’s not up to me, or anyone, to force and push him. My job is to say “yes” to him and be willing to be used by him. My job with the blog is to explore and become more aware of how he can work in the realm of eating disorders and share that with you. So I’m going out on a limb, unaware of what the outcome will be or what the tapestry will look like. Yikes!
I’m not completely sure what you can expect to get from this blog, but here is what NOT to expect:
- meal plans or specific treatment advice
- judgments or disapproval
- pressure to do, believe, or eat certain things
- biblical debates
I hope you will use this space as a way to meditate on God’s truth and how it relates to eating disorders…whether you have one, someone you love has one, or your profession is to help people who have them. Thank you for reading!